ID
"I am who I am, simply because I am not and cannot be anyone else."
This quote used to be my statement to myself of myself. I didn't know who I was, and I didn't know how to find an answer that was suitable enough. I didn't know how to answer questions from others when it came down to them asking me about myself.
"Who are you?"
"Emeka"
I am no longer a nobody. I will no longer write under a name that refers to anyone else but myself. I have an identity, and it is a strong identity. It is not based on who I know, or in what I do. It's basis is in Christ. My life is hid in Christ. I am who Christ wants me to be, and it's simply that. Why should my life be separated from my revelations of who He is? The more He reveals himself to me, the more I find out who I should be. This is the most objective point of view. Ask me 'why is it objective?' and I'll tell you 'because Jesus is love, and I'm learning hot to love you and everyone else like Jesus loves'. You would then disagree and I would shake my head and leave.
Joy is found in doing what you know you have been sent here to do. This is true if you know how to do it.
Chapter 2
Water
Is polar and the universal solvent
H-Bonding. Hydrogen is bonded to an atom with a high electronegativity. It forms partial bond with oxygen in other molecules, creating new properties, like a higher boiling point. It requires the correct orientation.
One molecule can H-bond with 3 other molecules. Look at ice
Hydrophilic means water-loving,
Hydrophobic means water-hating.
Electrolytes like anions(-) and cations (+) are hydrophilic because they're charged.
Phospholipids form a micelle when in water to keep the hydrophobic ends away from the water.
Types of bonding
I am under a great amount of pressure. I'm one lost sheep in my family as compared to the other 99 (my brothers and the rest of my family). I look at you and those on your side, and everyone has accepted us. People aren't telling you that you're making a bad decisions that you don't know what you want. They want us to be together (except those who are jealous like your exes). My side hates it. Up until now they've said that I don't know what I want, you're just infatuated you're holding me back, and that I'm the downfall of the family. As though it was a mistake starting something with you. This has been going on but it wasn't a real reason as to why I made that decision. A bad and un-thought-out decision. If my family were to hate my right hand, I wouldn't cut it off, I need my hand. My hand is an extremity and is one of the furthest points from my heart. I keep you closer than my hands, so screw them.
"God should be behind us 100% or else we shouldn't go on with this", is what I said in my mind. What tells me that God is behind us? Why do I have to lie when I'm around you? Lie to my parents and brothers. Why do I feel like I'm doing something wrong when I go and visit you? Why can't you tell your mother about us? If this was the will of God, He would've made provisions. If my hand is not in the will of God I'll cut it off.
But!
(and that's a big but, a concept that always allows me to bounce back, and change my mind based on clearer keener observation. What you have is a life-saver.) this was my partial thinking when I made that decision.
How do I know God isn't behind us? Who can give me you? Who is able to create someone that has my best interest at heart, (Mine of all people)? Who can make someone soooooooooo perfect? At times we take what God has given us and do what we shouldn't. That's where lying comes in and the feeling of guilt. We started this at a young age. Everybody that's old would disagree. It would be intelligent not to tell them. I was dumb and told my parents and now look at the mess I'm in. It's Okay, mistakes give me experience and a chance to grow strong in the face of adversity. God has made provisions. It was just hard to see it when facing criticism. He gave me my right hand. If I use it for jerking off, then I shouldn't cut it off, I should just stop and repent. Yeah, I know that example is rather graphic, but so as long as it gets my point across.
I love you. You're the greatest thing that ever happened to me, and I'm not just saying that to cheer you up. I mean it. You're better than vanilla.
"God should be behind us 100% or else we shouldn't go on with this", is what I said in my mind. What tells me that God is behind us? Why do I have to lie when I'm around you? Lie to my parents and brothers. Why do I feel like I'm doing something wrong when I go and visit you? Why can't you tell your mother about us? If this was the will of God, He would've made provisions. If my hand is not in the will of God I'll cut it off.
But!
(and that's a big but, a concept that always allows me to bounce back, and change my mind based on clearer keener observation. What you have is a life-saver.) this was my partial thinking when I made that decision.
How do I know God isn't behind us? Who can give me you? Who is able to create someone that has my best interest at heart, (Mine of all people)? Who can make someone soooooooooo perfect? At times we take what God has given us and do what we shouldn't. That's where lying comes in and the feeling of guilt. We started this at a young age. Everybody that's old would disagree. It would be intelligent not to tell them. I was dumb and told my parents and now look at the mess I'm in. It's Okay, mistakes give me experience and a chance to grow strong in the face of adversity. God has made provisions. It was just hard to see it when facing criticism. He gave me my right hand. If I use it for jerking off, then I shouldn't cut it off, I should just stop and repent. Yeah, I know that example is rather graphic, but so as long as it gets my point across.
I love you. You're the greatest thing that ever happened to me, and I'm not just saying that to cheer you up. I mean it. You're better than vanilla.
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